about me

this is a quick note about me so if u ever wonder - wonder if grandma would like this? u might be able to figure it out

i am 48 yrs old when i write this my life has not been too spectacular in that i haven't personally found the cure for cancer or diabetes that kinda global world changing stuff  my life is more about the mundane everyday stuff

i like to think that i am humorous in fact that is what i d like to be my lasting legacy that when people think of me after i pass that they remember when i made them laugh on purpose and not on purpose  lol and o yes that i raised good people  no serial killers here

this is what i think other people perceive me to be:  mean, not funny, tense, unapproachable, intimidating
i am pretty sure i am a high functioning autistic person, or at the very least have autistic tendencies that might lend itself to other people's perception of me but mostly i think other people as insecure and like i said it's THEIR perception  lol

one of your uncles has a very mild form of autism too  guess which one

people that know me well understand that i have these tendencies, and generally i like to see the good in people but that was not always the case

 when i was a young child i was frightened and tense about EVERYTHING in the world, i counted things to calm myself down  i rarely spoke to people outside my family and was generally 'inside' myself.  i was smack dab in the middle of 8 children (will provide a genealogical tree sometime in the future)  i kinda blended in  somewhere around my 10th year i found humor  nothing specific that i remember but i did realize that i have to  interact with the world

i won't get into the chronological order of my life cause i can't remember it in sequence  i have not idea how people write their autobiographies  my memories are flashes of visual  stuff and scents  i get creeped out when people say i was at such and such an event in my life and i have no memory of it  i had somewhat of a misspent youth that i will explain at some point but that might explain the memory issues but mostly i think i have too much in my head and 'some has to fall out'

i have a university degree i was the first in my family to have one  pretty cool

i raised all the children i bore no 'lost' children in my closet  what u got is what u have lol  but their father's are another question

i have loved deeply but he was not the father of any of my children  odd yes  i will try to explain later

i have grieved deeply and have gotten through it    time really does heal, but so does acceptance  more on that

i am a psychic person, and can communicate with the spirit world   another time another story

i am very capable and very intelligent

i am a voracious reader

i prefer solitary activities

i am curious about everything  i ask questions

i can see through people and their 'veneers'  i really dislike superficial people   i really life funny people

i call people on their bullshit and that can make enemies   but i don't really care

i don't want fortune and fame,  i want contentment and security

i don't suffer fools gladly,  ignorance is a cancer on society